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As I Walk Through the Valley

“Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed. If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But someone who falls alone is in real trouble.” Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 (NLT)

 ” … a sweet friendship refreshes the soul.” Proverbs 27:9b (MSG)

Lord, I’m sipping my coffee this morning while praising and thanking You for Your wonderful gift of friends.  Hebrews 13:2 says that sometimes we can be interacting with angels and be totally unaware.  Hebrews 1:14 says that angels are ministering spirits.  I believe that You also minister to us through friends, who are our own “special angels”!  Lord, You know that I have been dealing with some doubts and confusion.  I felt that I was following Your directions and traveling on a journey that You sent me on, but the road seems to have come to a dead end.  Was this really from You?  Okay, what now?  Should I keep going or should I quit?  Is there something I’m supposed to be doing but I’m missing it?  I know what I want to do next, but I don’t know how to get there.  Then I start listening as doubt starts to whisper, and insecurity begins to surface.  You know that insecurity and I have had a life long partnership, and the insecurity I feel over this situation begins to gather reinforcements from my past. Their favorite weapon of “you’re not good enough, smart enough, spiritual enough” begins to hit the mark. But, You sent me two “special angels” in the form of friends. I saw a quote recently that said “Friends are angels who lift our feet when our own wings have trouble remembering how to fly.”  Well, these two angels definitely did that! They gave me encouragement, they gave me hugs, and one even gave me attitude!  In Exodus 17, You sent two men to stand beside Moses and help him, and Lord, I thank You for sending these two women to stand beside me.  I’m not dealing with the type battle that Moses was overseeing, but I am dealing with a battle of my own.  Satan loves to make us all feel alone and isolated.  In those moments of vulnerability, he will fan the flames of our insecurity and doubt.  But thankfully God, You provide for us those friends who love us, support us, and encourage us to be what You desire us to be. Thank you for those friends and those moments! 

Doubts and Discouragement

Hebrews 13:6: Therefore, we may boldly say: The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me? (HCSB)

 

Psalm 56:3-4: When I am afraid, I will trust in You. 4 In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not fear. What can man do to me? (HCSB)

 

 

coffee and computerLord, I’m sitting here with my coffee and my computer trying to focus on You and not on the voice in my head putting doubt and fear in my heart.  I heard You speak to me about writing a devotional, but like Moses I thought  “I can’t do that” and thought You must be giving the devotional to my husband and asking me to support him as he wrote.  I came to realize that You were giving it to me.  You made it so clear to me that I accepted but asked You for 30 devotionals in 30 days.  I was amazed at Your works ……..until one morning when You didn’t tell me what to write.  Then came the doubts and fears.  What if this is all from me?  What if I was right the first time?  What about those 30 devotionals in 30 days?  Then I heard You say “I promised 30 days but not 30 consecutive days.”   I know that I need prayer support, but I can’t tell anyone that I’m writing devotionals.  What will people think?  Will they think I’m being a prideful show-off by saying that God speaks through me?  I know someone who is writing a book – will people think I’m just trying  to copy her?  What if I tell people and things don’t work out?  They will think I’m a failure, or worse, a nut job.  What if I look foolish?   Lord, I know that these messages are from You, so why do I care what others think?  Hebrews 13:6 tells me that You are my helper and not to be afraid because man can’t really do anything to me.  Lord. I am scared and I am humbled and I am not at all confident that I can do this, but I know that I need to hold onto Your promises and Your truth for the security I need.  Lord, it is a little crazy that You want me of all people to do this.  It’s a little crazy that I hear You speak to me.  It’s a little crazy that I expect people to read what I write.  But, Lord, it was a little crazy that Peter stepped out of that boat (Matthew 14:29).  It was a little crazy that Joshua had people march around the city (Joshua 6).  It’s a little crazy that You allow me to be a part of Your great plans.  Your word tells me 365 times not to fear.  It’s a lot crazier that I would ever doubt You!