Psalm 139:13: For it was You who created my inward parts; You knit me together in my mother’s womb. (HCSB)
Job 10:11: You clothed me with skin and flesh, and wove me together with bones and tendons. (HCSB)
Isaiah 41:10: So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (NIV)
The new medicine I am taking for my advanced osteoporosis is working! My latest scan showed some thinning but no major digression as the past ones have shown ……but……and this is a major BUT ….. the marvelous miracle medicine that is having such a positive affect on my bones is having an adverse affect on my kidneys. Lord, I am shedding tears into my coffee this morning. I am so very discouraged. I have so many health issues, and it seems that each check-up brings more tests and each test brings a new issue. Sometimes I feel as if my health issues are like a child’s spinning top, going in circles but spinning all over the place, almost out of control. Or like an avalanche, going downhill fast and picking up more speed and more problems along the way. Lord, help me to remember that You created me. Jeremiah 1:5 tells me that You knew me before You created me in the womb. I can’t be sure of what is going to happen but You can. Hermann Hesse is quoted as saying “We are not going in circles, we are going upwards. The path is a spiral; we have already climbed many steps.” Father, You created me. You knit me together. You wove my bones together. In Jeremiah it says that Your thoughts about me are for good. Isaiah 41:10 tells me not to be afraid and not to get discouraged. You are God, and You will give me the strength I need to face my issues, health and otherwise. Just as David sang to you, I will also sing – Lord, You created me and I am wonderfully made. My frame was not hidden from You before I was born, and it is not hidden from You now. I will not be discouraged because You hold me up and give me strength. As Peter proclaimed in 1 Peter 5:7, I will cast my cares upon you because You care for me
Hebrews 12:2: Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.” (NIV)
Lord, I seem to be going in all directions this morning. I pick up something in one room and take it to another room, where I see something that I need to do, which leads me to another room and another task. I have made my own amusement park ride – going in all directions just to end up where I started. I decide I need to sit down with my cup of reheated-again-coffee, take a breath, and focus. Lord, I hear Your still, small voice reminding me that the way I live my life is sometimes like my time this morning. I spend a lot of time going in all directions when I need to focus on You and the direction that you have for me. Studies have shown that where our eyes go, our bodies will follow. Runners are told to focus on a point ahead. Professional drivers are told to focus on the road. Christians are told to focus on You. We all know what can happen when we lose focus. Runners cross out of their lanes. Drivers run off the road. Christians become confused. Matthew 14:29 tells us that Peter was walking on water when his focus was on You but sinking in the water when his focus changed. Professional drivers have caused major traffic issues because their focus changed. Well-trained runners have caused injuries to themselves and others when their focus changed. Christians have become mired in sin because their focus changed. Lord, help me to keep my focus on You, to look to You on my life’s walk, to look to You when things seem to be racing by, to look to You when I am on top and when circumstances seem to be pulling me under. Lord, help me to focus on You instead of the situation, to focus on Your healing instead of the pain, to focus on Your generosity instead of my wants. Psalm 121:5 says that You watch over me. Thank You, Lord, for never losing Your focus.
Hebrews 13:6: Therefore, we may boldly say: The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me? (HCSB)
Psalm 56:3-4: When I am afraid, I will trust in You. 4 In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not fear. What can man do to me? (HCSB)
Lord, I’m sitting here with my coffee and my computer trying to focus on You and not on the voice in my head putting doubt and fear in my heart. I heard You speak to me about writing a devotional, but like Moses I thought “I can’t do that” and thought You must be giving the devotional to my husband and asking me to support him as he wrote. I came to realize that You were giving it to me. You made it so clear to me that I accepted but asked You for 30 devotionals in 30 days. I was amazed at Your works ……..until one morning when You didn’t tell me what to write. Then came the doubts and fears. What if this is all from me? What if I was right the first time? What about those 30 devotionals in 30 days? Then I heard You say “I promised 30 days but not 30 consecutive days.” I know that I need prayer support, but I can’t tell anyone that I’m writing devotionals. What will people think? Will they think I’m being a prideful show-off by saying that God speaks through me? I know someone who is writing a book – will people think I’m just trying to copy her? What if I tell people and things don’t work out? They will think I’m a failure, or worse, a nut job. What if I look foolish? Lord, I know that these messages are from You, so why do I care what others think? Hebrews 13:6 tells me that You are my helper and not to be afraid because man can’t really do anything to me. Lord. I am scared and I am humbled and I am not at all confident that I can do this, but I know that I need to hold onto Your promises and Your truth for the security I need. Lord, it is a little crazy that You want me of all people to do this. It’s a little crazy that I hear You speak to me. It’s a little crazy that I expect people to read what I write. But, Lord, it was a little crazy that Peter stepped out of that boat (Matthew 14:29). It was a little crazy that Joshua had people march around the city (Joshua 6). It’s a little crazy that You allow me to be a part of Your great plans. Your word tells me 365 times not to fear. It’s a lot crazier that I would ever doubt You!